What parent hasn’t felt the pressure of providing for their family? As a mother, I feel like there is another level of stress that comes with providing for their family. I want nothing more than to be a provider for my family and make sure my kids feel a sense of security. But, also as a mother, I want nothing more to be sure my children safe while being cared for. Which brings me to my current predicament; should I go back to the career I have spent a decade working in, or take these fleeting short years away from my career to be with my children?

I am fortunate to have an extremely supportive husband that is confident we will make life work in either scenario we choose. But that doesn’t make the decision as simple as I wish it was. As a teacher, leaving the classroom comes with different set backs. Sure, the obvious lack of salary and benefits is one factor, but also, the opportunities and community I have created is another. I have relationships with families to think about, students I hoped to teach one day to consider, and future career aspirations to think about as well. As I muddle through options, I am confident I would find my way back to the classroom one day if I chose to take a break from teaching right now. There is just so much unknown in these decisions. Am I making a huge mistake by leaving the classroom? Will I be able to find a strong school community when I chose to return to the classroom?

I continue to go back and forth, weighing all the pros and cons of each scenario. But the one factor that beats out all the rest is what is best for my kids. I need to consider which situation would impose the least amount of transitions and disruption to their routine as possible.

Whatever decision I make, I know that it is in the best interest of my babies. One piece of advice that has stood out to me is, no decision has to be permanent. Multiple people from different areas of my life have said this in similar words and I can’t help but think God is trying to send me a message. These decisions aren’t necessarily permanent. If something isn’t working, I can make changes. I am choosing to put my trust in God and pray that he gives me peace as I work through this decision.

With Love,

Stephanie